If my life was to be equated to that of a boat I’d spend most of it in the quiet shallows of a safe harbour, bobbing up and down on the cusp of a gentle wave and light breeze. Yet sometimes the storm brews and I feel lost and confused in a world where all I see is the next huge wave threatening to destroy the fragile little boat that looked so grand and shiny in the safety of port.
When all I have is out of my control and the waves of life coming crashing in I realise just how fragile life can be, whether its a broken friendship, an ill relative or a worry about the future my security starts to fail. In these moments I tend to try and claw back control of those areas that overwhelm me, often fighting the storm head on and never quite overcoming it. In these moments I forget the true power of who God is.
I remember one time recently lying on my bed worrying about certain things and feeling overwhelmed by different aspects of life and questions on the future. In these moments I often play music on my Ipad and so naturally went to my favourite playlist. It was as I was listening that the song mighty to save came on and the words “My God is mighty to save” hit me in a new way. Here I was in a moment of desperation and I had forgotten that the author of life who is strong in battle was with me, and I was blinded by the storm I was in.
If our God is for us who can be against us? In the midst of a storm it’s hard to put our trust in God, especially when it seems like he has deserted us. It’s easy to say everything will be ok, but when your heart is on the line it’s one of the hardest things. All I can say is this poem reflects wonderfully the experience I’ve had of God in my life. God hasn’t always taken me out of the storm straight away but he has been like a lifeboat gently steering me to safer waters and I know I’m safe.
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there were one set of footprints.
This bothered me because I noticed
that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from
anguish, sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints.
So I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during
the most trying periods of my life
there have only been one
set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most,
you have not been there for me?”
The Lord replied,
“The times when you have
seen only one set of footprints,
is when I carried you.”
Lord help me through the storm. Keep me safe and keep my trust in you. Help me to lift my eyes to you, the God who is mighty to save, amen.