This isn’t a particularly insightful blog but a simple truth that I rediscover constantly on my journey in life with God. Its a simple understanding that all God desires is for us to rely on him, that in our weakness he would show his strength. My prayer is that for me and for all of us is that as we surrender to our maker we would see his love, grace, hope and power fill our lives….
We’ve all probably experienced those moments when it seems like everything we put our trust in and everything that we’ve invested in falls down like the walls of Jericho. In my short-ish life of 21 years I have experienced a couple of times where these moments have been true, most notably when my amazing grandma sadly passed away. She was a hero to me and someone who loved me for who I am and for not who I wanted to be. Life was also hard in that time for other things too. Yet in that low place I discovered the power of our God and King as I sunk so low that to me all I had left was God. In my weakness God became my strength as I pulled through and saw God do so much through me and in me in those dark hours.
Yet its easy to forget this truth. We live in a culture where often we are judged by what we do. I find myself falling into the trap of advertising my life as been one of wholeness where I can do everything by myself. I often peservere to stop sinning and that in that God might do something, I often find myself not needing God, that I can do things by myself. It’s in this place that I find myself operating in most of the time. I have enough money to support myself and do stuff I enjoy, I am doing really well at university, I’m involved in a number of church projects, I’m accountable to a number of people and I give people my time. I find myself wandering life with no real need to rely on God apart from the duty of the act or the things that I can do fail.
From this perspective it seems an admirable place to be, commended even. For the man who does not need to rely on anything else is surely a powerful man in Gods eyes. Yet throughout scripture this story does not hold true. In fact it seems that God does the very opposite. He took the Israelites into exile so that they would return to him, he took Abraham to the top of a hill calling for him to sacrifice his son and he led his people through the desert for forty years, he called Joshua to march around a city instead of attacking it and led Daniel to the lions den. It seems that the people who did the most amazing things in the bible were the people who merely surrendered themselves to God.
For me this is the place that I want to be everyday, fully relying on God. The challenge for me and I think for all of us is do we choose to rely on God, especially when all is well. Waking up every day and asking God to be my guide is perhaps one of the scariest things we can pray because often it means not going the way I want to. I often picture my life’s journey as a constant stream of perfection and its hard to lay down my dreams and plans when God tells me otherwise. Yet whenever I give my life over to God and just say have it your way God always pulls through, it doesn’t mean life is perfect but it makes more sense. Even recently as I turn my eyes back to God its been painful and I’ve not understood it, but I’ve never ever been let down by God and I’ve seen his kingdom come in my life and the life of the people around me.
‘Lord thank you for the cross that you made a way for us to be your sons and daughters in relationship with you. Thank you for my life and the things you’ve given me. Help us to rely on you in everything we do for we know your love, justice, hope and power will keep us going. Sorry that we get to the place where we don’t feel like we need you or love you. Humble us, even if it means breaking us, we ask that you would bring us to a place where we are fully reliant on you for in our weakness is when your strength is truly the most powerful. Help us to surrender even when its hard. Thank you Lord. Amen.”