Humility – I’m crap at it.
If you’ve been following my blogs recently you’ll have noticed that I’ve been banging them out pretty fast and the truth is that I’ve been learning so much. Every time I open my Bible something else seems to amaze me. The amount I’ve learnt and has led me to a passion to share this message because it truly has been good news to my life.
Yet over the past few days I’ve began to realise that I’ve become proud of the blogs I’ve been writing. Its been amazing to hear from people who have been inspired and that’s why I fundamentally write them. I love to share the stuff God teaches me because his Word brings life and freedom. But one of the things I struggle with a lot is being proud. Recently one of my close friends changed the password for my wordpress so I could’t go and check the dashboard to see how many people are reading it. Honestly I go several times a day to go and see how many people read it, it gives me a sense of worth knowing people will check out my words. Yet this is not humility, this is for my own sense of worth, hence my decision to get a friend to upload blogs so that I can concentrate on Gods teaching not boost my own self esteem. I hope this shows how much I value humility, and yet how much I struggle with it. I am on a journey of trying to be humble and I hope this blog will inspire us to overcome this issue of being proud. The Bible simply overflows about humility.
Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you,
1 Peter 5:6
Do nothing from rivalry or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves.
But he gives more grace. Therefore it says, “God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.” James 4:6
Whoever exalts himself will be humbled, and whoever humbles himself will be exalted. Matthew 23:12
He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the Lord require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?
There are loads more verses but these are just a few to prove it. I’ve come to discover Its hard to be humble because that means putting yourself below others. Its something that is almost completely the opposite of our society where its all about us. I go past a banner at the university I study at every time I enter the library which tells me its all about me. The adverts I see on TV convince me its all about me. Yet the God we love and adore calls us to be humble.
We just have to look at Jesus, humbling himself upon a cross to die even though he was perfect, so that he could make a way for us to be with God. That is humility. If God calls us to be like Jesus then I think he’s pretty serious about humility.
Yet its so easy to say it. I find it so easy to write a blog and say “hey guys, lets be more humble” But its a painful journey., for in a culture where we have so much it means letting go of a lot.
The very words of Jesus highlights the cost.
” And he said to all, “If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever would save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for my sake will save it. (Luke 9:23-24)
Its a painful journey and I found myself today crying out to God, break me and build me back up again. I didn’t really expect to be broken quite so literally. I found myself listening to a friend telling me exactly what I needed to hear about my arrogance and proudness, it was painful because I didn’t want to hear it, yet I know its what i needed to hear.
If you are proud ask God to humble you. Its painful but he will.
That is one of the joys of being in a deeper sense of community with people, is that they aren’t scared of telling you what you need to hear, not what you want to hear. And that is something I will blog about, my thoughts on real community.
But my first goal is to humble myself, so that God may be glorified.
I’m just beginning the journey of reaching the stage where I can boast in my weakness because it shows how strong Christ is. This blog is not about my strength but Gods strength in me.
““My (God) grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9